Stokley

i think i have finally figured out where i went wrong with my music.

I'm a talented musician; i can play, produce, write, record, and even mix every instrument.

yet i can't come up with lyrical content, nor can i come up with music to go with anyone else's lyrical content.

i believe that this is due to the fact that i have nothing to declare. No message. None.

all the bands of the past, and now...songs about sex, drugs, rock and roll, parties, breakups, broken hearts, government agendas, and all around peace promoting tunes from mr. marley himself.

they all have something to declare, some message to get out to the people. But what do people that are bitter with society, and have lost hope for general well being of the human race have to write about.

You'd think that there's a lot. not one single solitary thing comes to mind.

maybe i just need sleep.

~Mike

sup everyone.

So i'm kind of a nerd, went to the midnight release of Modern Warfare 2. Totally sweet. Been playin that all day.

I've been trying to keep up on posting so i thought i would just throw up a few pics for good measure.



Photograph by Steve McCarthy

( a few more )

what up?

I got a ton of techno music last night. Pretty excited for that. I've been listening to techno ever since. Brings back good memories.

Friday night, headed over to a friends house for a bit. Should be pretty fun, i feel like i haven't done that in forever. I usually work at the club Friday and Saturday nights, but managed to work some magic and looks like its gonna pay off :).

I could use a break anyhow, this week has been hectic. I'll get some pictures posted on here eventually, but its on my list of things to do. Right after washing all 5 days worth of my laundry. eh.
Not looking forward to that.

Also coming back to LJ i've realized that i should add some new friends. No one's been posting at all. Maybe LJ is just dying out underneath the huge flame of facebook. But i think i like LJ better for this sorta thing.

Different mediums i suppose.

I came up with a thought in the shower today as i was pondering on my MUCH younger years.

"Imagination is often times lost with the acquisition knowledge;
but if you can manage to hold on to both, that's when creativity is born"
-Me


It makes a lot of sense to me. When i was little my imagination ran totally wild, i remember one time in particular when one of my babysitters said she got a new sandbox we could play in and for some reason i thought that meant that there was a box we could be beamed into to play in.

That's what i mean about imagination, anything was possible. But the more you learn, the less imaginative things are, imagination is replaced with factual knowledge and the saddening fact that most of that stuff just isn't real. But for those who can still imagine once they acquire knowledge, those are the ones who create space travel, the airplane, microwave ovens.

i know i probably didn't need to go into that much detail with it, i just wanted to share my point of view.

in any case feel free to quote me, just make sure to give credit where its due.


Have a great weekend.

~Mike

well shit i must say today started out to be pretty interesting.

I got up the same i do every morning, got my shower, grumbled about the day, hopped into my car drove to work just in time to see someone get hit by a car.

I parked my car and ran over to make sure no one died.
the girl was hurt but seemed to be otherwise alive and "ok".
Told her not to move till the EMS team could get there, and then i went to work.

I know, eventful huh.

My girlfriend jessica is amazing btw, she stopped by my work and said hi. (she told me to post that, then said she was kidding, but i posted it anyway.)

Work was otherwise uneventful as always. Got rent paid today tho, thats always nice.
I need to figure out my plans for thanksgiving and my birthday as well. i have to work so not many options are available. My original plans fell thru as my parents don't feel up for traveling.

Still no luck in the search for musicians as of yet. It's been 5 days since i posted my ad, i got a couple people in mind, but nothing good or certain yet.

oh well

~Mike

whats up everyone, its been 63 weeks since my last update. Damn, i haven't even checked to see what i had written.

thats over a year isnt it? damn. i feel like i've been slacking. but i guess thats not really true, i've been moved to facebook kinda. Not entirely. i still like to stop in here, but facebook status updates are just soo damn easy.

I'm still trying to get another band together. No luck so far tho. it'll happen tho...i know it.
My birthday is coming up too...the 23rd of november. I don't feel too good about it tho, i turn 28, i feel like i'm getting too old to do any of the things i wanted to do before i got this old.

Still working security at the bar. It's a pretty badass job, and i get to look like a badass when i'm doin it so it all works out for me :).

Ugh, i'm tired. I should go to bed but i have trouble sleeping. It's a messed up issue that i've had for a while now. i better at least try..

any of you that are still on here and reading post don't be afraid to say hello. I'm bored :) that and i would like to see who still is around.

~Mike

Yo yo yo, sup everyone.

Long time no write i know..maybe if i had a little more inspiration i could actually get on here and write something worth reading lol.

Things have been pretty weird for me as of late. Its almost as if somebody took my whole life, threw it in gigantic salad and tossed that fucker until it was so mixed up that not even the ceasar of salad himself would recognize the various flavors in that dish.

My mom closed the restaurant, a staple of my life that i have always fallen back on in the darkest of times, and a commodity that came well in handy whenever i was traveling south or partying in Riggins. Shes tired tho, i am happy for her in a way. She has been working there and running the place for well over 10 years. I hope this opens some free time for her.

I rolled down to boise this last weekend. Fun times were had by all. Me, Tiff, and Nate all rode down there together which was fun cuz tiff has a mustang convertable. Totally hot. :)

Speaking of hot, holy shit is it hot in boise, damn. I thought i was gonna fry the whole time i was down there. Doesnt help that i left here in a drunken haze and managed to pack all long sleeve shirts. WTF was i thinking!?

Watched Katy Perry live at the warped tour. She was ok, i have seen bigger bands do much worse. Did i mention that she is totally hot too?

A lot of hotness going around last weekend.

Warped tour just isnt what it used to be. I have been going for years. Since it started. Maybe i am just getting too old, who knows. Back in the day there were punk bands like pennywise, rancid, the misfits. Now we have Katy Perry? What happened to all the punk bands?! Even the majority of the bands there i would have normally considered un-worthy of the warped tour. A lot of indy rockers.

For fucks sake go start your own tour, get off of mine.

But then again, as they say, if you dont like the music, dont come.

So, given that, this may very well have been my last warped tour. Maybe i have out grown it, maybe it outgrew me, whos to say.

The rest of boise was alright, we didnt really do a whole lot. We hit up a karaoke bar on Thursday night, that was cool. Good selection, ok sound setup. Could have been a little better tho, but then again after working and singing at CJ's i guess you can say i have high standards.

Friday night was just a chill night. Saturday we went downtown, went to a couple clubs, it was fun. Drank too much rum and coke and drunk texted friends till early A.M. lol i gotta quit doin that, i say some silly shit.


The drive back was ok, amazingly not hungover, which is always good....maybe i should just drink rum and coke more often.

Maybe...

Spent too much damn money tho...now i am almost -$200, thats never good. i get paid tomorrow, and i think the girl at the bank might think i am cute...i'll see if i can use that to my advantage lol. That of course is a complete fabrication, but i'll see if i cant smooth talk someway out my overdraft charges.

Got tomorrow off. yay.

Have a good rest of the week everyone.

~Mike

Its been about 4 years now.


4 long years since i have been in the band. Fire Under Collision.

Pullman Washington's premier band of the time.

It was amazing, the parties, the people, the friends, the stories. It gave me something to look forward to everyday. It was my lifeline.

How i have survived this long without it amazes me.

Everyday of my life i wish i could go back to those times, a much better time. There was so much to look forward to, so much to be excited about.

I dont have that anymore. i miss the guys. all of them.

I miss playing my guitar, i miss promoting our sound, i miss playing with all the bands that i have had the privilage of playing with.

I try everyday to make that happen again, but i dont think i can ever go back.


its amazing how much someone can miss the past.

and its the past that will always haunt us.



~Mike

I am single again. Tertia is moving out next week.

ugh.

I haven't even really gotten an explanation yet. I don't have much time right now, but i'll go into more detail tonight.


~Mike

2 years is kind of a long time.

Kinda down today (surprise surprise). Super long day, My friend Dana came over yesterday evening and Brien came downstairs with 3 bottles of Champagne, which then turned later to wine drinking and man, that's an odd sort of drunk.

Needless to say today sucked BIG. I was still drunk when i woke up, i am sure of that, and then i woke up late for work (its good to be the boss) which only made things worse cuz it was freight day. i was about 3 hours behind on all my work all day long. I need a vacation of some type. I've been so ridiculously stressed out with everything lately that its driving me to alcoholism.

Three jobs is no easy task.

My new myspace page is going pretty well, i recorded a couple songs and posted em up, hopefully i'll have more up soon. i finally have my home studio setup just about right, i gotta get a pop filter for my mic still, and maybe a stand but other then that i have near full setup. :)

Im worried that i may end up being single again soon. i talked to Tertia tonight, the usual, lots of tears, sadness, thoughts, and apologies. But none the less i think she feels that i would be happier with someone else. We haven't really been hanging out a lot lately, and when we are home together shes usually on the computer and we haven't been talking much. She said she needed some time to think so she split out to downtown for a bit to get her paycheck and stuff. I suppose its good to think things over, but it still makes me worried and sad. I love tertia, and i know she loves me, but lately its just hard to tell whats been going on. two different kinds of lifestyles i suppose.

But then again i haven't really done anything in my usual lifestyle in quite some time. She mentioned that tonight too. One of the reasons i'd be happier without her she says. I disagree, but then again i dunno. Im still worried in any case.


2 years....

thats kind of a long time.....

Goodnight.

~Mike

I find that this is usually a good place to vent my frustrations.

and yet everytime i get on the computer it seems that i cant think of anything to put down.
Maybe i just have so many frustrations that my mind clutters in the midst of thought.



Sometimes i feel there are just to many to write down.

Im off to bed.


~Mike

SO...here i sit, bored out of my mind, a bottle of budweiser sits next to me half drank and a 6 month old cig burns away in my ash tray.

Today kinda sucked, nothing but work. Got another website to make, graphics and all, joy to me. More money i suppose. Papa Murphys was fucking busy today, not too happy about that. Sometimes i feel as tho i am drowning in all this work that i have piling up, not to mention my strees level keeps rising. Vacations seem to do little more than make me want to work a whole lot less.

Its kinda sad but i find the older i get the less things seem to make me happy. I cant seem to write anything good musically, or find a band for that matter. People keep saying i need to move, but that seems pretty impossible at the moment and i just signed my lease for another year so i guess im just gonna have to wait and see how things pan out.

Maybe if i just head to bed tomorrow will be a better day.


Night.

~Mike

I hate mornings, with a fiery passion that could never be formed into the proper words.

Not by me anyhow. Headed to work early to get some extra work done. YAY! go me.

And i am still sore from softball. Its been 3 days now and i am still sore....

i must be outta shape.


~Mike

As you may or may not know i have been building websites for companies and such lately. Call it a hobby if you will, or a 3rd job.

Freelance website stuff, its fun, i get to do it from home, and it pays quite well. I got my most recent site skeleton finished tonight, which is sweet cuz i am a week ahead of schedule. They asked that i design the logo for the company too based off of a sketch they gave me which looked like something jotted down all quicklike with a pen. But i made it look good.

They didnt want much, just a simple site with a Title (Cover) page, and 3 other pages with a 3 column table design.

Thats it. if you wanna take a look heres the link

http://mavenconstructionllc.building.officelive.com/

Its just my soft launch site link, the site isnt finished by any means, but that is the general design. And like i said, i am a week ahead of schedule, and actually added some things they didnt think to ask for but i know they are going to want. I know this particular client on a personal basis.

http://www.Universitycityrentals.com


Thats the other site that i made and am currently maintaining right now.

Fun times for me :)

Well i am off to bed, i have another long day of work, pizza's and webstuffs tomorrow.

~Mike

Whats up everyone..

Long time no speak eh. I don't even know where to begin, not even in the slightest.

Exactly how does one go about explaining the last 2 years of their lives? Does i start where i left off, or do i just go on from here, as is. It's hard to say really.

i dunno why i came back to LJ today, i just did. I never visit the site anymore, just seems like a lot of past jargon that i'd rather not remember half the time..., but on the other hand, theres a lot of good memories on here too.

I suppose its kind of like a relationship of sorts. Can one have all the good without the bad? I suppose not, at least not in my experience. Often times all you can see is the bad parts, and none of the good. The good is still there, always has been, always will be. You just have to choose whether or not your willing to take the bad along with it. Someday i'll actually go back through all these journal entries and read the whole thing beginning to end, might be kinda interesting. To this date i only know of one person who has read ALMOST the entire thing. Im sure she would have read all of it but i have a few entries blocked to everyone except yours truly. I guess she was bored :P i dunno. Tho i did get a lot of crap for things that i didnt even remember lol.

Lets see, the last 2 years.



I haven't really done a whole heck of a lot. Mostly work, just as my last post says. I am still managing Papa Murphys (yay go pizza)*gag*, and now i am also the senior security at my nightclub. Lol yeah, i've been there longer than almost all the employees there. I think there is only one other person who has been there the same amount of time as me. But he's a dj and cook. Pretty much any time off that i have after that i use to build web pages.

As far as music goes, i don't really play much anymore. Sad i know, but since the band broke up i haven't been able to get back into it. I still play on my own a bit, but i don't do shows anymore. I used to do some solo acts and open mic stuff for a while, even did some solo recordings at home too that turned out real well, but its hard to find inspiration in this massive block that i have seemed to have trapped myself in. When i do write its only for a few days at a time, then i get bored of it again...well, i guess not bored..just un-inspired. Theres been sooo many crappy bands and stuff out lately that i just feel that the whole music industry has gone to crap. Kinda makes me feel like the whole f*cking thing is pointless. That or i am just getting old...

Which brings me to another point altogether.

I turn 27 this year. I remember when i used to make fun of people my age. And now here i am, 26 and a manager of a pizza joint in idaho. Not that i dont like Idaho. I love Idaho. Its peaceful here and i dont have to drive hundreds of miles on $4.00 a gallon gas to go on an adventure of some kind. I think thats one of the things that keeps me here.

I kinda miss my journal actually...its an easy way to vent. I think thats why i started writing in it anyhow. Im not even sure how many people will see this post. Not that it really matters, but it will be interesting to see if anyone replies to say the least.

By the way, Pandora saves my life. Congrats Genome Project.

I better get to bed.

I promise to write more.

I always keep my promises.

~Mike

hey, its been a while since i updated isnt it.

I dont do a whole lot these days, mostly just sitting around and being a lameass working all the time. theres so much to say, but i dont have nearly enough time to say it much less put it into words. In any case, if anyone wants to see more into what my life has been lately go to


www.myspace.com/mikefuc


I update that everyday.

More later.

~Mike

August 27th.
NO ONE WANTS TO MISS IT!
IT'S MITCH-A-PALOOOOOZA!
Complete with Beer Garden, Pepsi products (for those underage), band merchandise and don't forget to buy your own Mitch-A-Palooza t-shirt!!

And who is playing, and when might they be playing, you ask?
Well, I sure can answer that question


12:00 DJ Iron Mike/DJ EZ Money
12:30 Cody Beebe
1:00 Ether Hour
2:00 Table Top Joe
3:00 Milo
3:30 Small Town Knocks
4:15 Arthur Scully
4:45 Ashabdee
5:20 P36
6:20 Arthur Scully
6:30 Random Noise
7:30 Just Ta Listen
8:30 Dave Montgomery
9:00 Armchair Cartel
9:30 The Flying Eyes
10:00 UhOh Plane Crash
11:00 Break Stalins Goat!
12:00 DJ Iron Mike/DJ Eazy Money closing out the show




Everyone come out and have a KICK ASS TIME.

OH yeah, and this whole shindig of a good time will be happening at the grand place of CJ's upstairs.


The end.~Mike

sometimes...just sometimes, i feel like i've fallen off of the path that makes up everything i am and ever wanted to be.




just sometimes.

wow...you know your life has gotten pretty pathetic when your wathing a documentary on cheese. As well as cheese wheel races.


I need to find somehting to do.

~Mike

alright peoples here we go...

warped tour 2006.

so i woke up promtly around 6:30ish to 7:30ish as i so often do the day of warped tour and get myself ready to go. The car ride there wasnt too bad, we stopped at a gas station and i got me a sobe no fear. It's my favorite of all the energy drinks. Finally after we got Jess's brother and a few of his friends loaded up we left on our way to Vantage WA. We were sposed to meet up with Ben and Dan somewheres around 11:30, tho due to some unfortunate and usual delays we didnt quite meet up until around 12:30ish to 1. Got some food and then finally ben got there and we were on our way.

We got to the tour as usual and got our campsite, unfortunately while i was setting up my tent i could hear that Less than Jake was already playing their set on the main stage. After everything was setup for the night and a couple of beers consumed we entered the tour...

there wasnt a whole lot of bands that i wanted to see this year so things were pretty up in the air as far as asking everyone who they wanted to see first. I already missed less then jake so the next set i wanted to see was Rise Against. Jess thought they already played but we LUCKILY wandered to the main stage about a song after they started. Amazing set, im completely hooked on their new single Ready To Fall. Its a great song and they have their new video up on their website, or you can check them out on myspace, www.myspace.com/riseagainst .

A little more milling around and what not we walked over to the Girlz Garage tent where i bought Jess a shirt that she got to customise with spraypaint. She really liked it, and that made me happy. Just about by this time we went over to see Zebrahead, who might i add had to suffer thru playing on a really tiny stage, that in fact had more people there than i think there was on any of the other side stages. Their set was amazing as usual and im pretty sure i could have sold my girlfriend to them for free. Which doesnt do me any good by any means, particularly since i have no intentions of selling my GF. Im rather attached.

Zebrahead played an amazing set and i got their new UNRELEASED album BROADCAST TO THE WORLD. Its sweet.

After me jumping into the mosh pit during zebrahead and the sun beating down on me all day i was starting to get a little exausted. Me and jess decided to get a slushy and sit up on the hillside for the next couple of concerts. The day had come to an end after NOFX played and everyone started to exit the venue. There was still a lot of fun to be had tho as the overnight camp party was just getting underway.

To make a long story short, i gained some buddist propaganda, some girl tried so take me hat and run off into the night but we chased her down and took my hat back, we drank many MANY BEERS, was offered many drugs to which i turned down, ventured to many campsites and cell towers might i add, watched a ton of porta potties get knocked over (prolly more than i had ever seen i think), and passed out in the morning.

When we got up we noticed this dude passed out in the middle of nowheres, he didnt move all morning. Finally we went to check him out and he was breathing but not moving. Eventually security came and hauled him off, i felt bad but it was funny nonethe less.

The drive back wasnt so sweet, as we were all tired and Ben and Dan left for their own parts of the northwest.

Hence there lies my condensed version of the weekend but i am runnin on low battery power right now on the computer so i must say this...



Goodnight

~mike

Man this has been an interesting week. Busy to say the least, im pretty stoked tho cuz its almost over and warpedtour is this weekend.


thats just a small update for everyone, now on to the real subject, i got a message from my dad today on LJ. Apparently my Uncle Lou isn't doing so well. Hes a really cool guy and i wanna help him out the best i can.

Here is the official website for helping out Lou Genise, it will give you a little insight into Lou and how great he is.

Please forward this URL to everyone who you know that may want to help,


http://helplou.com/main.html

Any amount helps.


Well everyone have a great week, i'll keep everyone posted on warped tour.

~Mike